Holosync update: When affiliate marketers attack and dreams come true (Level III conclusion)

It’s that time again. Admittedly, I’ve been cheating and am moving on to Holosync Awakening Level IV about a month or so ahead of schedule. Since I decided to start integration for Level IV today, that means it must be about time I did an update for you.

This has been an intensely interesting few months. I started listening to Level III last November, about the time a lot of things changed in my behaviour. For a start, the weirdest side-effect ever noted came to an abrupt halt. All the way through Level II I read Dean Koontz books, pretty much obsessively. I cleaned out the local library and got a few from bookstores and cheaply on the internet.

At the start of Level III I found myself halfway through a book and sat there wondering why.

There has been a general calmness that’s built up over the years I’ve been doing Holosync, which is one of those intangible effects you don’t really notice until you run into a situation where you used to explode and suddenly you just don’t. Aside from the general calming down, there’s the clarity of thought that’s new, the gradual lessening of the Lurking Fear that has occupied my life.

And let’s not forget that for the first time in my life, I’m doing what I love for a living. Well, almost.

I haven’t really written about it because I’ve been subconsciously expecting it to just evaporate into nothingness. Yet it seems to be happening. I noticed that I was thinking negatively about it today, worried that everything was about to go wrong. I decided that I should reconsider the situation with a bit of NLP magic and a reframe: instead of panicking that it’s all going to end abruptly at some point soon, why not celebrate that I’m actually being paid to write books?

Admittedly, they aren’t Amnar books. But it’s a start.

My brain keeps saying: “What? Writing for a living? No, that’s not right…”

So I’m giving it a bit of time to get used to this. Since the Fear Department in my head is fairly huge (with about the clout of several Sir Humphreys* and at least one Whitehall) and run by a combination of Icant Du That and Lurking Dread, not to mention underlings like Neverget Itwrong, I’ve been stymied. I can’t do anything I don’t feel absolutely certain about.

Sometimes, that might be anything other than breathing and writing Amnar. Finally, finally, this is clearing up. I know that over the course of my life, I’ve actually been very successful, but I’ve done it by a combination of fighting through a haze of fear and a stony determination that is just too painful to keep up for long. When it came to doing something I truly love, and being paid for it, that pressed about every button I had going.

I still resist, but it’s lessening all the time. It feels as though, over the course of this last few months, one life ended and a new one began. I’m on rather shaky legs, but I have a lot of support, so it doesn’t feel as though I’m doing this on my own anymore, having to prove something to a hostile world. That helps. So the Fear Department has been suffering a lot of lay-offs.

Finally, though, there is one thing that I find if not annoying then slightly bizarre. Affiliate marketing is all the rage on the internet. What gets confusing though is when you buy from different companies, and they’re affiliates of each other. You get double, if not triple, the email and snail mail correspondence about the latest offers. One will offer one kind of discount, and the other another.

This means that I hear from Bill Harris about Learning Strategies, Bill Harris about Bill Harris, Learning Stategies about Learning Strategies and Learning Strategies about Bill Harris. The good thing is that if I miss out on the offer the first time around I’m guaranteed to get at least three other opportunities to take it up.

Now, I’m on to Level IV. Things change here, and instead of taking six (well, OK, five) months to do a level, they take been eight and twelve months. I can really feel the difference listening to the new tracks. I will do updates in future every time I finish a sub-level.

P.S. I get a lot of interest in my Holosync updates and for some time I’ve been considering doing a Holosync-only blog. Would anybody be interested in that?

***

*If you don’t know about Sir Humphrey and Yes, Minister then really, you need to start now. You will need no other education in politics after that.